Jason got to go see Dr. Rutledge today. He weighed in at 13.8 pounds and the 75th percentile. Jason was deemed happy and healthy and after a few pokes with vaccines and prods by the doc, we were sent on our way. All he did after that was sleep to recover from the trauma and the side effects. You want so badly to keep your children safe and you read about all the possible complications and make educated decisions but it is still tramatic when they hurt.
Been back at work 2 weeks now. Still an adjustment. I so want to be here and love the challenges of my job but part of me just misses the kids and wants so bad to be able to watch his every breath and be there for all his firsts. I say this but then there are times when I can't wait to get out of the house and drop them off and then the guilt totally overtakes me. I think it is all about a healthy balance of things that make me feel happy, motivated and challenged and spending the most quality time with my family. And if only I was getting steady sleep, it wouldn't be such a hard thing to balance. I dare to complain though since he really only gets up once during the night and looking back at E or comparing to friends, we have it easy.
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